so ive been either extremly emotional lately, or nobody cares about scott and I. i hope its the 1st. ive sent out numerous e-mails and fb post about my blog. but i only have 3 followers. and in the term followers it means to me this is how many people actually care. i know more care but just dont know how to share it, and i got the rudest personal fb msg from a friend of a friend of a friend about how stupid i am to have my hyterectomy, and that if i truely want to have children then i should have waited, i replyed ummm sure id love to knowingly bring a child into the world that would have a 85% chance of being born YUP I SAID BEING BORN with kidney failure, or we can adopt. and there are thousands of awsome kids waiting for a forever family. i though how mean to say to me sure why dont she just get endometriosis and have constant pain, and during the mentral cycle have the pain be un bearable. ummm NO THANK YOU!!!! im so glad i had my surgery im not in constant pain anymore. and in my heart and mind i currently have a child his name is Archie and so what if hes a cat, hes my kiddo and im his Mama. and he snores just like his Daddy. we have also had ppl run in the other direction when they hear disease nfrom both scott and I. its like OMG what chickens. its not as if its contagious. were no different i mean we are stronger together and we have learned a lot and have changed our ways in many aspects. we wont go there. we had a crisis. but really for ppl to run in fear of us. and ppl think i didnt have a disease too. well i did its called endometriosis and guess what IT SUCKS!!!!! or it did. and all you preggo women, I HATE THE INTERNAL ULTRASOUNDS they suck too!!!! and they hurt due to my very large cyst i had. so happy to NOT have to do those again... but people treat us different. NOT everyone treats us different but some. I can always depend on my grandparents on my moms side of the fam. Love them both sooo much. My aunt Patti I absolutly LOVE my auntie Patti-ANN if your ever down ive learned all you gotta do is call aunt Patti and she'll cheer you up. life wouldnt be the same with out her. Tandy and Andrea my tow best friends in all the world (except my hubby of course) they never turned and ran. when tandy and her hubbs and he lil one came to visit last xmas she doesnt do well with needles but she came while we were dialysing scott. and andrea i could always call day or nite whenever i needed her. but some ppl treat us different. i wouldnt trade our challenges for anything but trust me you wouldnt want to have your spouse or yourself go thru kidney failure. im sorry if i offended anyone im just feeling like nobody cares.
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Oh My goodness what a week. so this week my head was itching and i felt like there was tiny creepy crawlers running around on my head. well i did i had head lice. MISERABLE. so my wounderful hubby was willing to try and get them out with this real;ly fine toothed comb with my long thick, THICK CURLY hair. well to sum it up I CUT MY OWN HAIR or started the cutting atleasst. i knew scott couldnt make the 1st snipping. so i did. while he is looking at me with the look of horror. but i knew there was no other way. so i have shorter hair now. im donating 10 1/2 inches to locks of love. then then then  well our car..... yup our car SUCKS!!!!! we have been having so much car trouble. the darn caution engine main car problem signs keeps coming on. grrr so irritating. so again we are taking it into the dealers. so annoying cause were basically with out a car and having to have scotts mom take us anywhere, and shes a bit crabby lately.  no matter how hard you try to do things to help out she gets onry about it either you #1 didnt do anything #2 you did it wrong and this is how you did it wrong. #3 the way you do it is wrong the way she does it is right and you just dont do a good enough job. mmmm do you wounder WHY we are not inviting her to go to the zoo with us (other then her hella scary driving) yup basically we think there might be something medically or something else thats making her sooo very irrational. i mean she nags when the cat uses the litterbox then she nags if they dont. nags if anyone is ever having a good time. i think shes just gone extremly BITTER and hates seeing anyone ever having any fun. ugh enough with that so i really hope our car is okay. so not wanting to do car shopping.